INSIDE OUT

Before I became pregnant, I posted a blog about having either more kids or adopting. After now having a miscarriage, I am no longer needing to focus my attention on a newborn coming into my home. Instead, I am longing for the opportunity to adopt. It was during my living in Ontario when I first discovered this passion. Maybe because of the realization that we no longer desire the "necessity" of another newborn into our home makes me all the more ruminative about bringing an adopted child into our home sooner than later.

I would have wanted to adopt even after this baby was born. As it stands, we would wait until N is at around the age of 5. We would adopt a child no older than her. B seems to be on board more now. I'm not sure if he's appeasing my conversation due to the sensitivity of the subject or has truly been more contemplative on the thought, himself. Maybe a bit of both. Do I really believe that every home should adopt? Absolutely!

Think about this: If every home adopted just one child, think of how many orphanages would be out of "business". THIS is community! Why would you NOT want to rescue a poor child from this fate! Really? What would it harm you? I'm not referring to taking in an inappropriate child, who inevitably would harm your own children, into your home while your children are still young. There are many, many beautiful children in this world just longing for a chance to have a trusting mom and/or dad hold them and tell them they love them. What better opportunity to show this world that you care about its children?

I realize that even those children who may be harmful deserve a family as well. For those children, I personally, would wait until my own children were grown and perhaps even out of my home. I would not want to subject my children to this. Yet, again, there are FAR too many children who would absolutely be the most positive step in one's family even during the raising of one's own children! Just ask the MANY who have already adopted and can ONLY speak of the positive impact on them and their family!

We give over $30 a month to a boy in a third world country. However, I just don't feel like I've done much to restore the heart of this child. I don't feel like I've truly taken care of him. It still makes me feel like I need to do more. Maybe I will always feel the need to do more. Maybe giving money for some people is what they can do right now. But, why? Why can't they do more? Why can't WE do more?